Angels Are Everywhere

Yesterday my children lost their father. There is no way I can take away their pain. If only I could, but I don’t know how.

Grief takes many forms, one of which is guilt. We ask ourselves, “Could I have said or done something differently? Could I have been more kind? Could I have said I love you more often?”

These are the kinds of questions that go through the mind right after the loss of someone you love. It happens.

At all times, but especially at a time of loss, angels step in, bringing us reminders that love is everywhere. They can take the form of friends, acquaintances, even strangers. Even in the form of grocery store clerks.

I went to pick up some food yesterday for us, in an attempt to make sure my kids kept their energy up. It’s a Mom thing I guess. While in one of the aisles, a young clerk came up to me and asked if he could help me find anything. When he saw the tears in my eyes, without hesitating he asked if I needed a hug. All I could do was nod my head. He hugged me.

At that moment, I was reminded that there are angels everywhere.

Rest in peace, Stephen. If you and I did nothing more, we brought two wonderful human beings into the world together. I know that you will find ways to look after them from the other side and I will do it from this one.

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Circle of Friends

My circle of friends is small but tight. I value their love, their wit, their charm, their brutal honesty, their opinions, and so much more.

Acquaintances come and go and there’s value in that as well. But true friends are so rare. You know. The ones you see after time has passed and yet it feels like you haven’t missed a beat at all when you reunite.

My circle became smaller today and my heart is breaking. My only, and I mean only, consolation is that I know she is now a Guardian Angel. Keeping watch over us. Cheering us on. Laughing with us. Dancing with us. Singing with us.

We are not promised tomorrow. Live today.

Be good to yourself and each other. Namaste’

Misc

I’ve taken some of my images and played today. Included in this collage is my granddaughter sipping on some Hawaiian ice in Honolulu, a flower from my garden in memory of those killed in the 9-11 attacks, an old Chevy truck on Alcatraz in San Franciso, our dog Foxy, who went to the Rainbow Bridge in 2013, and Daisy sniffing my tulip arrangement. 

Say a prayer today for the loved ones of the 9-11 victims, whose lives were inflicted with unfathomable pain. Hug every member of your family and remind them how much you love them. 

Be good to yourself and each other. Namaste’

 

Loss

Pencil Sketch

Back in the 70’s, my Uncle encouraged me to buy an SLR film camera. With his help, I purchased a Pentax K1000. Wow! It was slick (at that time) but I didn’t know jack squat about that kind of camera. It was completely manual; no automatic settings at all. I was used to using a Fuji point and shoot 🙂

Well … long story short, he took me under his wing and taught me about focus, depth of field, shutter speed, natural light, bounce flash, and composition. Pretty much everything I needed to know. He had been a photo journalist for the Omaha World Herald newspaper and I really enjoyed looking through his collection of articles and images.

Soon after I got that camera, we went on a trip to Hearst Castle in San Simeon, CA. We had such a good time, taking pictures all over the place, including sitting on the beach at sunset, capturing images of waves crashing on the rocks. Between the two of us, I think we shot 25 or 30 rolls of film.

He taught me so much and I’ll miss him and his encouragement. He passed away a few days ago. He was 86 and lived a great life, but losing him leaves another hole in my heart. My consolation is knowing that he’s now with my Mom, his big sister. They we so close. Now they are again.

R.I.P.

Be good to yourself and each other. Namaste’

 

Missing My Brother

Dear Mike,

You left us this day three years ago but time hasn’t dulled the memories I have of you.  I miss you.

I’m grateful for the good times we had, so I’m sure you can understand why I swear at you sometimes for checking out so soon.  Namaste’

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School of Kindness

Every person in the world has a heart.
Every heart has a place within
that wants only to love and be loved.

Let us connect with that
place of love in our own heart
and in the hearts of all around us.

Let us take a moment now
to open to the heart connection
we share with all people through love. 

From moment of love.

Today’s photo is of the wind chimes I have in my back yard that I placed in honor of my brother.  I miss him every day and today, as I met with my “gang of six” I realized that the above poem applies to all human beings.  We all miss our loved ones that passed on because of the love we shared with them and the connection we had.  It’s not gone; it can never be gone. 

One other thing … I found this blog that has some very cool information about a school of kindness in Puget Sound, Washington.  I can only say that I wish all schools were like this.  What a different world it would be.  Keep up the good work, guys!!!!!!  Namaste’